1/15/07 1950

I did not put anything in my previous journal about the speech Bush made on how he was sending more soldiers to their death...I think deep inside I thought I would be jinxing some of those who are on this list who are getting ready to deploy here...again...or those already here who have been extended, or even those I am here with now.

I figured he has scared everyone enough with his speech...

Maybe..I was just trying to ignore the reality of it all....the inevitability

But it didn't help...it didn't work...

There is great pain here...we lost 4 to an IED...dammit!!!...4...

I just wanna scream till my lungs hurt...dammit...

It's all I can say now.